I heard a call from the Lord to be in ministry when I was 15 years old. I was in youth group, and as Pastor Ron was speaking I felt the Lord gently tugging at my heart and anointing me for his work as a missionary. For a few years I thought this meant that I had to travel overseas, but it was during my time in college that I realized my mission field for this season was not necessarily a foreign country but was the bedside of the sick and dying. I graduated as a registered nurse in 2014, and have spent the last 4 years as a hospice nurse.
I would be lying if I said I was always confident in the Lord’s call and in what I was doing. Everything about nursing has been outside of my comfort zone; I have cried often and have had to fight bitterness in my heart. But nursing brought me so often to such a beautiful, thin space where you could so clearly sense the nearness of heaven and earth. God does such beautiful work in places where people are vulnerable, weak, and desperate for him. He allows us to join with him in that work and it has truly been an honor to co-work with the Lord in this space.
I was walking with Lucy this summer and felt the Lord tell me I need to step further away from nursing. I of course said, “You mean, to one day a week?”. But I believe he was telling me to step away almost entirely so I can more fully devote myself to a different mission field and to our work with Inspire.
This is a huge step of faith for me! I love my job, my coworkers, and the ability to go to work and make my own money. I don’t want my mind to forget all the things I have worked so hard to learn. Not to mention, Anthony and I will now be living almost 100% off support instead of 50/50 like last year. But if God has taught me anything in this season it is that surrender is where we find joy, and God always has better plans than I could ever think of on my own.
So, here we are! I am excited to see what work God has for me in this new mission field of my local community and through Inspire. I am praying that God will open my eyes and help me see the “thin spaces” in the mundane and day to day, so that I can help others see where he is working and so that I can be a faithful co-worker with Christ.
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